Daily Success February 19 – Very Good. It was going to be Okay – my energy was very low, I took an afternoon nap, and was just giving up – but I was cold after my nap and got back on the bike to warm up. I did myself no good anyplace else with the whisky intake well above the “I’ll start here” ration. Fortunately, the Internet Monster did not have much success with me.

Yesterday

Yesterday should have been an easy day and in many ways it was. Exercise, Spanish, Poli-Sci with limited angsting over having to deal with Sam once and for all this week. The problems were two-fold.

First, I’ve been experimenting with stopping the testosterone boosters that I’ve been taking for years. They seemed to increase my energy when I started them and, more importantly, they ended my need for a two hour nap every afternoon. That said, I take more pills than I want to take and they’re expensive. The “don’t take the testosterone” seems to have been a failure and the experiment has ended.

Second, my right shoulder continued to be a serious limitation. I tried, very carefully, a few exercises involving it and found it uncooperative. That led to a much larger excuse – see energy – than it really justified. If I had done what I knew I should, yesterday would have gotten to Outstanding.

And all that was before things went wrong after dinner. I started my evening chores and found the kitchen trash bag full. Solution: change bag. When I got to the “put new bag” in part, I did what I always do, shake the bag hard so that the air opens it up. As I did the first shake, I could feel my right shoulder joint slide as though it was going to separate and the pain was awful, so bad that I screamed.

My chores did not get finished. Dr. Friedman’s concerns about ibuprofen were ignored. A heating pad (which may or may not have been a good idea) and whisky accompanied me to bed.

Today

Today is Presidents’ Day. I’m not sure how that will affect the schedule for things with Sam. One day, mas o menos, will not make a difference.

Beyond Sam, more of the same: exercise (limited by the shoulder, very limited because even some of my leg exercises involve rapid arm movements to keep my balance). Even stretches and physical therapy for my shoulder (which I have been doing very steadily) are at risk. Bike, here I come.

I do plan to do some work on My Camino Day posts and my YouTube channel today. I should have the time.

The Future

The Gathering approaches. Tickets to San Antonio must be purchased. A car? An Airbnb for the time before the Gathering, with the idea of going early in the hope that a slot will open up for hospitalero training?

And, if the hammer must be dropped on Sam, I doubt that I’ll have many friends in San Antonio. There will be a lot of collateral damage.

Decisions must be made.