Daily Success January 13 – Failed. This is a train wreck.

Yesterday

I’m not quite sure what caused yesterday to fall apart so totally. Monika in the afternoon, yes, that took some time, but not enough for another meltdown of a day. I did take time for a haircut (which converted my mountain man image to semi-civilized) and my first attendance at Cliff’s Friday men’s group at the Brew House Kentlands. The men’s group was a good choice as I need more social interaction. Badly.

And I did take Jan out for a “date” last evening. That seems like another good choice.

Two things took huge, and non-productive, chunks of time.

Terminix has achieved getting on my “never again” list after demonstrating not just incompetence but a willingness to harass a customer through that incompetence. I have not included a link to Terminix for a reason and strongly recommend using some other service.

The other time suck was, and will be today, my inputs on intellectual property and what I should be paid for mine on SurveyorBot and SAGEbot. Sam has pushed me to the end of my tolerance and writing this stuff is all the harder because of my growing irritation with him.

Today

There is football today, which will help me get in the gym. I need to get in the gym. My weight is up, my energy is down, my anger is damaging my ability to see things clearly, and my despair of the future and my body’s ability to do what I so badly want to do are making each day a new dungeon of ineffective effort.

Today is today and it must include a return to scores above “Failed.” It simply ain’t that hard; just some discipline.

The Future

The piriformis continues to show improvement. My left knee is the least painful that it has been in some days, but it is not as good as it was a week or so ago. The sciatica? It’s kind of hard to know, but I don’t think it’s gone. It does, however, announce itself in ways very similar to some of the knee pain.

Lovely. Just lovely.

I cannot expect any answer from American Pilgrims about Ribadiso before early February. Any openings for hospitalero training at the Gathering are unlikely to happen before mid- to late-February as the training does not start until the 5th of March.

Lovely. Just lovely.

Then there is Jan.