December 12, 2023
Daily Success December 12 is “Okay.” Better control of the Internet Monster and another minute on the bike would have made it “Very Good.” I’m too weak to fight that hard at this point.
Yesterday
Yesterday was a tough, tough day. There were lots of reasons, but the situation with Jan finally reached the breaking point on Saturday and now it’s time to figure out where to go from here. One more uncertainty, although I’m hopeful as she finally seems to understand that my strength and patience are not infinite. Hopefully, that extends to understanding that it can no longer be “all about her”.
We shall see.
Other than that, I did get a little done on SurveyorBot, some SAGEbot thinking, a variety of emails and a good level of exercise despite feeling lost and hopeless here at the computer much of the day.
Today
Today is off to a strange start. My back pain, which I now understand is probably piriformis in addition to the sciatica, seems ever so slightly better each day. The tingling is definitely decreasing, albeit at a rate so low as to be invisible day to day. But today there was a very significant pain in my left hip when I got up. New, and very disconcerting.
There will be chores to do today. Christmas checks to write. Exercise if my will is strong enough. Who knows.
The Future
“Who knows” is as good a phrase as any in this spot as well. So many unknowns, starting with Jan. Then the back. And the hip. And …